Afraid of the Dark
My world was dark for so very long,
I had nothing inside,
I had nothing to give,
I could not receive,
I was a prisoner,
I could not escape the darkness,
Though I tried so many times,
Then he came into my life,
He said he wanted me,
I said no,
He persisted,
I let him in,
Then I saw the light,
My heart opened up,
I fell in love with him,
He was my world,
He filled the void inside of me,
I was him,
And he was me,
Though he said he loved me, he never did,
But I loved him,
Everything about him,
The good and the bad,
Then he left me,
He tossed me aside,
Maybe for another,
Now I am afraid,
That the darkness will return,
That the loneliness will be too much to bear,
That I will forever be alone,
So I hold on,
To my fantasies about him,
That he will transform himself,
Into a man with a heart,
Into the man I thought he was,
So that he will love and cherish me,
But this will never be,
But, still I hang on,
I am afraid,
I am transforming myself,
With the good inside of me,
With the good God has given me,
To do His work with the gifts He has bestowed on me,
But still, I am afraid,
I reach out and cry, O’ Lord, please help me,
Give me strength to help myself,
So I may become who you always knew I was,
Be patient O’ Lord, wait for me,
I will let him go,
In time,
And trust that You will provide,
And lead me down a path,
To true love and fulfillment.
