********episode 4*************** i really dont understand why god gave us to the kind of parents that dosent value children, main reason why my brother decided to futher his studies in london. My mum does not know when i started my monthly flow, i saw my first flow at the age of thirteen i was scared at first i thought i had a wound in there, thanks to aunty temi my friend's elder sister that do take us extra coaching for our common entrance examination after closing hours in basic five that made me understand what it is, if not for her i wouldnt know a ting about sex. My friends came in and met me crying, i quickly clean my eyes with the back of my hand but it was too late... ''toyin what happened? Why are you crying? Titi asked nothing am fine'' i replied ''you are not, we met you crying'' ''babes am okay'' i said and sat up putting on a smile to convince them even though they were not convinced but am not ready to let anyone into my family affairs. We talked and gisted about other things but my mind wasnt with them,deep down i was crying. ******************************** 2nd term and third term came and go and the year finally ended. Another year came again and my dad visited once while my mum dint show up at all , i didnt even care about them anymore and i was fully introduced into the world of lesbianism, i lost my virginity into lezbianism and was an expert in it. I couldnt concentrate on my studies anymore, i was always horny and would not rest unless i gave my body what it wants. Out of 100percent of pupils in the school, 80percent were lezbians and out of fiftenn teachers, five were gay, seven were lez and the remaining three were married which was hidden to the principal because he's not always around. I started hunting for girls like me , it was during my hunting for girls i met ifeoluwa who is a quiet girl and always attend fellowship. She normally wear long skirts,long sleef shirts and always tie her hair with scarf all the time. I didnt know what actractted me to her and i've been looking for a way t ttalk to her but she didnt give me the chance. I met her on my way to the toilet one tuesday she was going to the fellowship as usual, i called out to her and she stopped.. ''hi, my name is toyin'' ''soo???, what can i do for you'' she replied rudely ''its nothing serious, i just want us to be friends'' '' am only going to make friends with you on one condition which is by going to church with me'' i told her i was going to think about it and she left, i wasnt ready to go to any church even though i was born and brought up in redeemed church i cant remember the day i've been to church last. She should go to hell with her friendship, church my foot'' i said and went back to join my friends. ******************************** it was the third term of my last tear in jss, the exam came and we did it even though most of us didnt read our books, then came the graduation party into sss. The disc jockey, mc and caterers were at work,parents and wellwishers were sitted, some of the pupils that their parents were not chanced came with thier brothers or sisters. I didnt even go home cos there was no importance of going home when i already know my parents are not around. The party went onsmoothly, after the cultural dance, menu and evrything the principal called out the names of the people that did well and each and everyone of them and their parents took pictures with the principal, when it got to my own turn i was all by myself, the principal was surprised that none of my parens came. I shamefully collected my result, took pictures with the principal and ran to the back of the school with tears.
