crazy passion episode 6

CRAZY PASSION

EPISODE 6

” I don’t know what to do Benjamimn, I can’t tell anyone about you, my
family and friends would probably crucify me for what l have done. I have
practically refused any visits to my home because I can’t risk people
seeing you here” I spoke almost to myself as he kept staring at me.

” But I feel in here” l held his hand to my heart. ” What I feel here,
gives me hope Benjamin and I know one day I will prove to the world that
love is beyond any reason or boundaries” I sniffed in and wiped the tears
from my cheek .

He smiled again, but this time, it was his usual silly smiles.

” Come here now” I pulled his hand and walked him to the living room. I sat
closer to him taking in the K350 Rasai perfume I got for him, I loved his
scent.

I smiled when he leaned his head on me even when he didn’t do it right. I
moved back a bit and made him place his head on my laps.

“What would I do without your smart mouth?Drawing me in, and you kicking me
out.

You’ve got my head spinning, no kidding, I can’t pin you down

What’s going on in that beautiful mind. I’m on your magical mystery ride

And I’m so dizzy, don’t know what hit me, but I’ll be alright. My head’s
under water. But I’m breathing fine. You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind

‘Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I’ll give my all to you

You’re my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I’m winning

‘Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you, oh oh!”

Came the soft sounds of John Lengend’s ‘All of Me’ song from the home
theatre as I rubbed his soft face gently closing my eyes. It felt like home
being so close to him.

He kept his eyes at the screen of the TV which had no sound as I turned it
off so that the only sound in the room was from the song playing.

I let the song play on repeat for hours and I slowly dozed off. By the time
I woke up, it was close to 20 pm. Surprised Benjamin was still laying on my
laps as he played with his fingers.

” You hungry mnmmm ?” I asked him. He nodded his head,

” Nshima” he opened his mouth and I sat up lifting him to sit on his own.

” I know, I dozed off and am sorry supper is late.” I sighed, standing on
my bare feet as I had pushed my shoes off.
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” What! No you cant!” I shouted, am sure if he was seeing my face he would
read my displeasure.

” You can’t come here dear brother because am not going to be around this
whole week. We have a workshop in Livingstone and I left this morning” I
went on explaining to my elder brother who called to let me know he would
be visiting me for some days.

” Just lodge at Aunty’s place in Matero brother, am not going to be home”

I heard him sigh obviously disappointed. He just called to ask if he can
lodge at my place as he would be working from Lusaka. I couldn’t allow it
even when I knew he never liked going to spend days at our aunty’s where he
mostly grew up from.

Him unlike me had one home to live in. After our parents died leaving the
three of us with my elder brother and young sister who unfortunately died
in a road accident the year I was completing my studies at CBU.

I never really had one place to stay. I always moved from one home to
another. Thankfully our parents left enough money for our tertially
education and so all we needed was a home to live in and our relatives took
us in. My sister and me went to stay with our uncle in Kapiri. The more
reason I visited my aunty in Kabwe more often.

My brother went to stay with the young sister to mom in Matero and he did
his studies at The University of Zambia, where he studied Economics.

My kid sister was doing her grade 12 the year she died. She was travelling
from Kapiri to go visit our aunty in Matero when she met her demise.

Not like I am complaining, but our family had not always been that close.
It was mostly one man for himself and people never really paid visits to
one another except during funerals and other family gatherings.

I had hopped I would get someone to stay with after I started working but
it was difficult to have anyone stay with me. Most of my cousins and nieces
preferred to stay closer to their parents and I finally decided to give up
trying to have people live with me.

Only my brother paid me visits most of the times, but this time around I
was not ready to host him. Knowing how controlling he was I wasn’t ready
for him to come over especially that the room he usually slept in was now
for my Benjamin. What with the fact that I was living with a mad stranger,
there was no way I would allow him to see him and end up taking away the
source of my joy over a month.

” Am sorry Brother. I wish I knew you were coming I could have left the
keys for you” I sighed making a sad tone.

” lt’s okey sis, take care of yourself. I bet I will just lodge at some
hotel then” he concluded before cutting the line.
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Staying with Benjamin for over 4 weeks was actually getting better. At some
point the drugs had finished and now that I knew the names of the drugs I
needed not go and steal from Chinama like before. I just went to some
pronounced Chemist and bought them even when it cost me half a thousand. My
Benjamin surprisingly gained some weight and I couldn’t help admire him.

“Sleeping?” I murmered to myself as l stood in his bedroom. He had not
moved out of his room that day and I got worried.

It was a weekend and he usually came out on his own. I drew the bed cover
and slid in the blankets besides him.

I felt him shift slightly his warm body touching mine. I saw him open his
eyes and glance at me.

” Hey!” I smiled hoping he would answer like he did sometimes. But he was
quite.

I shifted sharply when I felt something hard rub my thigh. I had wore a
skirt and a vest.

” Oh Benjamin! ” I laughed realising he didn’t have any clothes on which I
had noticed was his way of sleeping.

He turned and looked at me his lips smiling slightly. ” What?” I asked
looking at his deep white eyes. ” Don’t tell me you can also be h*rny?” I
laughed not taking away my eyes from his.

I pushed my hand inside his thighs and I saw him wince slightly making me
giggle as I felt him stand harder.

I felt the urge to help myself with him but then I realise I couldn’t do
that to him especially that he wouldn’t probably know about that later on.

Well, my plan didn’t work as he surprised me, I withdrew my hand but now he
was the one now rubbing his hand on me.

” Oh Jezz!” I moaned surprised.

” We have to stop Benjamin” I held his hand but it seemed I had provoked
him enough. He pushed me back and leaped on top of me.

” Stop!” I shouted trying to push him away, but he pinned me leaving me so
powerless my inside felt sore but good.

” Oh my God, Benjamin” I sighed my eyes shut as he lay motionless on top of
me I could feel his heart racing. With my hands I pushed him down and he
fall down fast asleep in an instant.

” Jen, now this is madness to its core” I whispered as I pulled myself out
on the bed pulling down my small skirt.

I sat in the tab filled with water as I relived the moment. He surely had
what I had termed a “perfect tool ” and if only he was normal, that would
make him earn points in love making.

I felt guilty in the end. Like I was taking advantage of his condition. I
recalled when I was talking to some friend who told me when I asked if mad
people had feelings.

” Yes they have”
” Haven’t you heard of stories where mad people give birth to some babies.
Meaning they too get horny and can have sex too. ”

” Well that’s hilarious” I sighed shaking my head. I had not thought
Benjaimn would feel like doing it with me. I honestly never had that
planned. All I knew was I loved him or maybe was so concerned about him,
but it wasn’t my intention to use him for my personal gain.

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