Diary of an imostar deleted scenes wednesday 28/11/2012

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she closed her eyes momentarily and breathed deeply as she braced herself for the impact of my blow, but then i was wise enough to know that it would further cause more havoc which i really do not want, and my fist hanged up in the air without going front nor down, as i watched her hesitantly, even though my left hand still held her throat tightly, "what are you waiting for nah" she jeered at me, and my heart pounded loudly as i thought of my next line of action, "its like this past holiday, all you did was to learn a different character" she said to me as she released my grasp on her throat and i brought my hand down, "coward abeegi comot there jor" she said to me, "get out from my room" i screamed at her in anger and she looked up at my face and cursed me, "foo`l its over between us for real and for chris i will make up with him in your face and he will continue to visit me any time he wants, and i'm coming back to collect my things" she said to me before leaving my room angrily, and i locked my door and fell down on my bed in despair, "has the long awaited day finally arrived?" i asked myself as tears fell out my eyes and i bit my lips in agony, i had loved this girl, shown her love, care, sacrificed my own happiness just to please her and never even cheated on her for one day, "God why is all these happening to me, is it a crime to love someone passionately, please i just need one favour from you Oh God, please give me the strength to forget christy and please reward me for the injustice that i had recieved in her hand, please i just need your blessing and nothing else cos i dont want to be a simple boy again, and i promise not to misbehave with your blessing" i prayed that afternoon in tears and it was as if the heavens opened up to me as i said my prayers, and i couldn't help but wonder how much we do remember God in times of need, but then i had known that one day christy and i will break up, but then i had never really been able to prepare myself for that eventuality, and i knew that moment that if ever i will be able to get over my love for christy, that i will hardly love again, cos my heart will be totally bruised with a deep scar and i will develop a major trust problem for all ladies........

And i lay on my bed and cried hopelessly, with no one to console me.......

To be continued......