Diary of an imostar season2 sunday 4/11/2012

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i immediately switched off my phone, without picking mirabel's call, cos settling with chinwe was really more important to me than any other thing, and i hopefully looked at her with a fast beating heart, "dear i really do not know where to begin, but seriously i do need you to forgive me, if not for anything else but for old time sake" i pleaded passionately, and she looked at me for a moment before shifting her gaze, "i have already forgiven you, cos you are really a nice person but then i can't accept you back into my life as my boyfriend cos it will lead us to nowhere, you really do know that i fought hard to keep our relationship going, but then after visiting your family i really saw that it would get me nowhere for your family had already gotten a wife for you, who i really can't competite with, so please leave me alone, so that i can patch my poor miserable life and know what to make out of it please" she said to me and i looked at her in silence without knowing what else to tell her, besides all she said to me was the truth but then have i really accepted adaora as my wife?? Definetly not yet, but then i knew that adaoras presence must have intimidated her, besides i really do not know the extent of what adaora told her, and for chinwe to make up her mind after all my pleas{pleading} both at home and in school really showed that she was very serious about it, but then i had already grown so fond of her that i really do not know how my stay in owerri would be without her presence, "so no hope for me again?" i asked her, as if i did not understand all she had said earlier to me and she just looked at me and smiled, "we can still be friends and you are free to visit me any time you wish, but i can never visit you again" she said to me and i gasped in alarm, "my five minutes is over" she added before opening the car door by her side, "so do take care of yourself ok and please do respect my decision cos it isn't easy for me as well" she added as an after thought before alighting from my car, while i watched her in silence cos i was extremely stunned, but then the reality of the whole situation was that chinwes visit to my family house had cost me our relationship,

my heart bled, while my soul mourned, and i wept, as i realised that i had finally lost her for real..........after much fight, betrayal, hope and love for we really went through a lot in our relationship of two years plus{2yrs+} and i couldn't really control the tears which blocked my vision as she left my car that tuesday morning.........

to be continued.......