How do I forgive this episode 1

HOW DO I FORGIVE THIS? EPISODE ONE

My name is ENEMONA which means who knows tomorrow but people preferred to called me MONA. I am an IGALA by tribe from Ega Idah local government in Kogi state. I grew up with a man who later explained how my mom forced my pregnancy on him.

The man brought out a Quran to swear for me to believe him. He said he never dated my mummy, he never sleep with my mummy that my mummy only use to watch movies in his room and some times my mummy use to sleep in his room because they lived in the same compound. After hearing this story, I became down with fever to the extent I couldn’t eat for completely 2 days. I was just crying, thinking where to locate my biological father.

There was this popular man I resemble. I was a cardboard copy of the man. No different between me and the man. The only person who could have resolved the issue which is my mummy was no more. She died when I was 4years old. After a month I went to the man I resemble but he denied and told me he only had one wife with 3 children. I left the man compound with tears. I have nothing to do than to accept my fate and move on with my life. The man who I know as my father couldn’t sponsor me as a result of financial problem.

I was sent to learn a mechanic. Some of my friends who knows my story were avoiding me. I tried to close to them but they ignored me. That subjected me into thinking for weeks that made me Park out of the house and went to another area at least to have a air of relive. I started managing myself with the little experience I gained from the mechanic. After some years I fell in love with a beautiful damsel in the street I lived.

I became a happy man. I really love the girl with all heart, she was my joy, my happiness and my everything. Her present alone mean everything to me. The girl also love me. She called me Darling. My heart palpitate anytime she called me the name. She was very brilliant in school and she was the last born and the only girl in the family. Her 3 elder brothers, 2 are already working in Abuja. After 3 years of our courtship, she gained admission in Niger state University. I was happy with the admission and at the same time not happy as my love will finally leave me. The day she was traveling two of us were crying.

I was not on myself for weeks. I really missed and felt her absent. During one of her holiday we made love together that resulted to pregnancy. My girl didn’t noticed till she went back to school. She called me and broke the news to me. I first jump up for joy before I later realize she was in school and that can chattered her dream. She went for a test and the doctor told her not try anything abortion that her health couldn’t take that. I told her to call her mom and inform her, she said her mom would skin her alive if she knows. I became confused on what to do. My girl came back home after 4months. She came back after they finish their semester.

Her Mom was mad at her and took her to the hospital to get rid of the pregnancy. The doctor told them what my girl carry was twins. My girl called me to come to their house to tell her mom I am the one responsible which I did, immediately the woman saw me, she called the police and I was arrested. I was in the cell for a week, i was released after 9days. Because of this matter my girl 2 brothers came to the village. My girl was forced to take abortion drugs. The love of my life died after a week she took those drugs. I feel like commiting a suicide right now. To be continue