shadow of love episode 38

Me: How dare you? Who do you think you are? Who is looking for an excuse to get back into your cursed life? I'm not like you William who wreck young girls, young enough to be your sisters. I'm not like you who has a heart of stone. So tell me, what will I be doing in your life? Enjoying your boring company or watching you have sex in your office? William.....

William: Pamela.....

Me: Shut up. Shut that thing you call your mouth. I, Pamela Bernards wants to get back into your life through Anna? Yes I wanted to, when I saw you, I wanted to, but not anymore because you're disgusting and.....

Someone held me from behind. The touch was gentle and without looking, I allowed him pull me out from where I was standing, ready to dash more slaps to William. I turned to see who it was and it was Tobe, I quickly slapped his hands out from my shoulders and stuck out a finger at him.

Me: Hey! You don't touch me again.

Everyone was looking at me like I was crazy but I didn't care. I pulled out a chair and sat down, ignoring their stares but they didn't stop looking so I picked my handbag and walked out, determined to go back home. I had barely walked out of the resort when Lois ran up to me. She was with Leonard.

Lois: Babe, what's the matter? What's wrong with you?

Me: Are you asking me that? You didn't hear him commit that blunder back there?

Lois: You would have simply ignored him. That's the best treatment for his kind. It's obvious he's a sadist and all we can do is ignore him

Me: I can't. He needs to be taught how to interact with people. He can't just pop back into our lives and try to change us with his stupid quest for vengeance.

Leonard: Pamela is right. William has gone beyond ignoring. He needs to learn that his old life was far more gracious than this.

Lois: Then, what do we do?

Leonard: Let's go back. I'll handle everything. Let's have our fun and go home. There are plenty of things to do in this resort.

Lois: You better be right. Pamel?

Me: Alright. I must carve an award for both of you. You two are always there to change my mind at all times.

Leonard: Leo and Lois, always saving lives.

We laughed and started heading back to the resort. They were already in another table, William had changed into another black suit and they were chatting. We joined them but I paid less attention. Then Lois spoke up;

Lois: Let me start by apologising for what happened back there. We're all adults so let's try to act like one. This outing was supposed to be a welcome back thing for me, but since it's now more of a get together, let's do something that will make it a memorable one for all of us, suggestions please.

Harry: Yea. I support you on that one. But first, let's take a look around this beautiful place. What do you say? Eddy, you're free to take us around right?

Tobe: Why not?

Leonard: Fine then, let's go.

Everyone stood up except me. It took Leonard's hard stare to get my ass up and join them. I decided to stick with myself since Amber paired with Harry, Leonard and Lois were together, Tobe led the way while William walked by Leonard's side, with his hand in his pocket. I brought out my earpiece from my handbag, plugged it into my phone and started listening to music, the sound drowning every other word from my ear. Tobe was busy, pointing out places and saying things I didn't hear. All I knew was, if they stopped, I stop, if they continue walking, I follow. Music, my life.

We got to something that looked like a hill and I was marvelled at what I saw, the beauty of nature, water was running out from a stone and some people were swimming down where it met the pool. It took this sight to make me pull the earpiece out of my ear.

Me: Wow.

Tobe: It's beautiful right?

Me: Yes. Tell me, how did this come about? It's just like that passage of the bible where Moses made water to start coming out from a rock. Don't tell me it's this place.

Everyone laughed and we started taking pictures. To my own surprise, I started having an open conversation with Tobe, we even snapped pictures together. Leonard once gave me a thumbs up and I replied with a smile. The resort was very beautiful and big. By the time we went back to our starting point, it was already past 8pm.

Leonard: We better get going now.

Tobe: I won't let you guys leave this place by this time of the night. I'll order dinner for you guys and then get rooms available for everyone.

Me; No. We've already taken much and you didn't charge us. It won't be fair if we let you do this one again.

He gave me a smile and I returned it.

Tobe: Anything for my friends.

William: You can get rooms for the girls, the guys can pay for ours.

Amber: Ladies not girls please.

William: Whatever. Guys, I'm speaking sense right?

Harry: Eddy, get rooms for all of us, the guys will pay for theirs.

Leonard: And dinner,......

Lois: I'll pay for appetiser and desert.

Leonard; You like food eh.

Lois: I know. You also love food.

Me: Let me see to the main course.

Harry: Is there a competition going on here? Guys, how can we let the girls beat......

Amber: I'll handle the drinks. You guys can do the serving if you really want to do something.

This drew a laugh from everyone. I saw a small smile on William's face and I looked away immediately.

Tobe; Let me be the one to decide on who pays and who serves. But the room issue, the guys will pay while the ladies get to sleep comfortably.

Lois: Right.

Tobe: I'll be right back



I was in the room assigned to me when I heard a knock. I was sure it was Lois. I walked to the door with just my bra and short since i had removed the Ankara top I wore immediately I got to the room. The intention was to sleep na'ked since I didn't come with a nightwear (this is where I envy guys).
I opened the door and it was Tobe. I was too shocked to cover up, I just stared at him like he was not there.

Tobe: Uhm. I'm sorry. I'll come back later.

He started to walk away and was almost in front of the fourth door after mine when I got hold of myself.

Me: Hey!

He turned back immediately, like he was really expecting me to call him back.

Me: You can come in.

I walked into the room and sat down, using the big bedspread to cover my bosoms. I don't believe in the so called "he had seen it before so why cover up". He entered the room and locked the door.

Me: Please sit down.

Tobe: Thanks.

He lowered himself on the single sofa in the room.

Tobe: How're you?

Me: I'm fine. You?

Tobe: I'm fine.

There was a five seconds silence in the room but that five seconds looked like forever. Our eyes were both locked and I was feeling the tears forming a knot on my throat.

Tobe: Pamela......

Then he knelt down and began to kneel walk to me. The tears fell and by the time he was beside me, we were both crying.

Tobe: I'm sorry.

Then I broke down, crying loudly and asking him lots of question.

Me: Tobe why? Why me? Wasn't I good enough for you? The lies? Tobe, I loved you. Why would you do that to me?

But his only response were his tears and sobs. I knew I forgave him the moment he placed his head on my laps and I held it in place, we both crying like the world was about to collapse on us.

After what seemed like ages, we brought ourselves together and started having that inevitable talk.

Tobe: We went to IMT and my friends were with their girlfriends. You had a test and I couldn't help ignore the feeling of wanting a woman.

Me: And when you came back, why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you cut off the relationship? You lied to me, you fooled me Tobe.

Tobe: I know. And that is why I'm sorry. I've been atoning for my sins ever since you left.

Me: But you married her, you still ended up with her.

Tobe: I was forced to it. My life was threatened. I was monitored, I became useless. I signed my marriage papers with a gun pointed to my head.

Me: What?

He looked at me and a tear fell from his left eye, but he wiped it off and continued.

Tobe: She showed her true colour a week after I found out you've left. She stopped my friends from communicating with me. I was pushed to hit her and I did, that night, my mother was killed by her girls.

Me: Jesus!

Tobe: I started fearing for my life. When Vivian and Cynthia told her you and I dated, she took my phone and refused me contact with anyone. I struggled to finish up my exams and immediately I did, I left for Abuja. I didn't stay for one month before she traced me to Abuja. Luckily for me, I had concluded plans on how to leave the country. I eventually left and was free, except for the fact that I almost tore every social media platform in my search for you. I thought everything was over and I came back two years ago after the death of my father but was I wrong, Claire found me and caused chaos with her girls the day my dad was buried. She insisted that the only way out was marriage, Pamel, I had no choice. I had to save my head. Fortunately for me, my dad had left a lot of things for me so I had to build hotels and resorts, found myself a job and had to marry her. You may not believe me but since we got married, I have not shared a room with her. She tried to show me that she's changed but I don't buy it. I never will. Harry told me he packed into a new estate, little did I know that I was going to meet you all again.