Shadow of love episode 39

And that was it. Our discussion went deep into the night. All about his wife and how he got inspired to do something natural with the money his dad had willed him. I freed up, comfortable enough to also tell him what i've been doing all these years and again, he kept on apologising, asking that i forgave him.

Me; i have forgiven you Tobe. Seriously, i have.

Tobe; And there is no chance for the both of us anymore? We were very happy together you know, we can always do better now that we've had better experience. I will never hurt you again. I promise.

Me; Tobechukwu, why not ask me if i am still in love with you? What about your marriage?

He looked at me and smiled.

Tobe; Its him right?

Me; Who?

Tobe; William. You are in love with him. You both had something then, Harry told me whatsup.

Me; I can't be in love with that scumbag, a love peddler, the Almighty forbid that. Listen, i am not in love with him. i am just concerned about him as a friend.

Tobe; I see it in your eyes. I know it Pamel.

Me; Stop it Tobe. You can't make such conclusions. I know what i feel and it's not for anybody. Not for anybody Tobe. I'm not ready to thread the path of love that cost me six good years of my life. I'm not ready to make such sacrifices anymore.

Tobe; That means you don't love me anymore right?

Me; Tobe, i don't love anyone, that's all i am saying.

Tobe; Is it my marriage or something else?

Me; Its not your marriage. I just want to take my time, that's all.

Tobe;I understand. Trust me, i do. But let me give you an advise Pamela, life is too short, very short so we've got to use any opportunity we get to live it to the fullest. What am i saying? You shouldn't use what i made you go through to deny yourself happiness. I will always regret my actions and yes, let it be my sacrifice for you to be happy. I don't mind staying with Claire for the rest of my life, i don't mind, so long as you will move on, as long as you'll be happy. You have to move on with your life.

I couldn't believe my ears. Was i with Tobe the cheat or some other guy?

Tobe; Promise me Pamel, promise me.

He took my hands in his and looked on at me expectantly. I thought about his words, bit by bit and yes, it made sense. I had to drop this lonely life of mine and move on. Its time to stop being all professional and live up like the Pamela Bernard from ESUT back in the days.
He tugged at my hands and brought me back to the present.

Tobe; Pamel?

Me; I promise Tobe. i promise. But now, let's talk about you. What will you be doing?

Tobe; If you're happy, i'm satisfied dear. For now, i'll go to my room. You won't believe it's 01;35 already.

Me; Time flies when you're with someone important or doing something important.

Tobe; Glad you still find me important.

I beat his hand playfully and he pulled me into a hug.

Tobe; Take care of your beautiful self for me okay?

Me; i will.

Tobe; Perfect.

He released me and we both stood up, not minding my topless body. I caught Tobe staring and he smiled at me, moving towards the door, he spoke in that voice i had always known.

Tobe; I'm glad you're still your sexy self.

I smiled and thanked him, then he opened the door and leaned in while i went to him.
Tobe; I'll see you tomorrow morning alright?

I hugged him and watched him leave, i leaned on the door post and watched him till he disappeared through the slide doors. I heaved a sigh, saying a silent prayer that he finds happiness since he wished me well. I was surprised at myself that i had not broken down, surprised that i didn't bother about his new entrance into my life. Then he spoke from behind me;

William; Hope you know you just screwed a married man. How shameless.