[i]EPISODE 33[/i]
I stared at her as she wept, i didn’t know either to listen to her or do what she termed as “embarrassment” but i couldn’t do it; the more she cried, the more drew me to the edge. I still need the relationship but the fear of what will happen aftermath kept me at bay. But i couldn’t leave myself in this embarrassment
ME: let’s talk some where please **i said with doubt as i shake my**
She stood up immediately and cleaned her face as we made way out of the class. Frank and his friends were nowhere to be found when we got outside. We made our way to the lab and she followed me like Isaac when Abraham intended to sacrifice him. I couldn’t understand what i was doing, my decision to speak with her means only one thing, “we must come together again” but i am not in the mood. I don’t know either to return to class or just walk to another place but it is already too late
Luckily, the laboratory was vacant when we got there. Immediately we are settled down at the lab, she knelt down
TRACY: i am very sorry Ben. I know that i have offended you but please, find a place in your heart to forgive me
She said piercing her eyes into mine, all i saw in her eyes was total remorsefulness. She was still shedding tears but that doesn’t move me. All that i saw in her was no longer human but deceit, she was just too disgusted. If someone would have told me last year that this will happen, i wouldn’t have believed
TRACY: please i know it was hard to believe me but first listen to me
She said that i should listen to her? Fuck shit! So that she will fill me with lies, nothing good will ever come out of that mouth except lies
ME: see Tracy, i am not in the mood to listen to any tale **i said honestly**
TRACY: **surprised** you just called me by name. I know that you must be so hurt to call me by my name. But please hear me out**she begged**
“Look at this idiot oo, that i called her by name? How many times has she ever called me by any romantic name? Idiot, the name i called you is just the least of respect you have in me, i would have called you “prostitute” or rather “gold digger” in fact, you are now valueless in my sight” i nearly said.
ME: i don’t want to talk now. Will you care if you give me a chance to refresh myself?
I never needed any refreshment but my entire plan was just to leave and never return or ever honour her request again despite the embarrassment. Since i have brought myself to talk with her, there is no way to leave her there except if i play a stunt
TRACY: please Ben, i really need to talk to you now
This girl must be a confirm fool. Imagine somebody that complaint that i called by her name was still calling me by name. In fact, she needs medical attention
ME: make it snappy **i replied in resignation**
TRACY: okay, thank you **she took a deep breath** i am sorry for what i have done Ben
ME: eer.. i have heard that already, so why didn’t you even cared to ask of me?
TRACY: i told you last time that my dad was sick; i couldn’t leave him with my mother alone, it will be very hectic for her
ME: and what of your number? It has been switch off, and you didn’t even cared to call
TRACY: my phone was stolen at hospital
ME: and you don’t even care to use another phone to call me
TRACY: yeah, i should have used my mother’s phone or my dad’s but i don’t have your number on my head
This girl is really funny, somebody that i have her number on my head from the first day i got her number was telling me that she doesn’t have my number off head, that implies that i don’t mean anything to her, well, this not the time for that
ME: hmmm...and you want me to believe you?
TRACY: that is the truth, i swear with my life
She sounded honest but that won’t convince me because people can swear with anything this days and nothing will happen to them
ME: i don’t believe that **i bluntly replied**
TRACY: **mood changed** that means you don’t trust me?
Did i hear her say “trust”? a girl that hide her past from me, lying to me that she was still a virgin, and still lying in my present was hear calling trust, “even devil himself will not even trust you@ i nearly said. I couldn’t myself trusting her again even if we get together again
ME: i don’t trust you. How could you expect me to trust you?
TRACY: i know that i have hurt you a lot; i have betrayed your trust. I would have at least have your number on my head, i should have called you, i should have thanked you for what you have done for me and my father, i would have visited you since the school resumed but i didn’t. I chosed the wrong part but all is not lost Ben, please give me one last chance, i promise that i will not let you regret it. I don’t know what came over me, i didn’t know what i was doing, i felt like i was been controlled. Please Ben, don’t let people embarrass me please, they have started saying many things, please don’t let them continue i beg of you with God
She reminded me; i totally forgot that i gave her money for her father’s treatment. Funny comedy. This girl has really done so many unforgiveable things but the bible said that “no sin is unforgiveable, even murder” and she has not committed murder
ME: i don’t care of what people are saying or might say but all i know that we can’t be together again
TRACY: don’t say that we can’t
She said but before i can comprehend what she said, she grabs me and presses her big breasts on my chest; that was the first time i will feel her breast, it was so soft and generate a lot of heat. She let her hand run to my back. She used her left hand to bring my face to hers, she stare at me while i also did the same, we kept on staring at each other with no movement or sound, she brought her face toward me and planted a kiss on my lips but i didn’t reply. She increased the tempo which loosen me as i began to kiss her back
She didn’t actually know my weak point; the kiss was intense but didn’t generate the kind of effect she expected because i was still active and in control
ME: that is not all **i told her immediately she let go of me**
TRACY: anything, i will do. Just say it
ME: you visit me after school
TRACY: **hesitated** okay, but i don’t know your address
ME: you find your way
I said and walk out of the lab. I didn’t know why i have to accept her back but down within me, i felt relieve. I walked back to the class and guys were waiting for me. I told them everything, how it goes
COLLINS: bros, this is your opportunity, since she agreed to visit you, try any how you know and fuck her. Opportunity comes but once, after you do it with her for the first time, it will become constant for you guys. You can even fuck her for school, and after you have done it for about seven to eight times, the only thing you will do is to dispose her because she is not a girl you can date
MIKE: she is way beyond you and the only thing there now is to do what he told you so that the girl will be respecting you forever. Even if you dump her, you can still use her to cool body any time you want because she is a free giver
FRANK: just try and do it so that you will not be at lost
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I decided to buy a telephone when i was returning home from a nearby shop. My aim been that i don’t want any further complain, i equally bought extra battery in case of complain of low battery
I returned home, took my bath, eat and settled for 4pm news. I was not the type of guys that will kill themselves whenever they are expecting female visitors. You visit me, you do anything you like. If my place was dirty and you didn’t like it that way, then it is left for you to do the cleaning (not that i am the dirty type, i hate dirt with passion), and if there is no food and you feel like eating, then you have to find your way to the kitchen, the highest thing i could do is to serve you drink and nothing more.
Not that i am not a gentleman, i am but it has limits, like; i don’t escort ladies to any where or help them carry anything that they can carry but i will help when what to carry is more than they can carry. Though, i reserved all these for my wife and i haven’t found her so i have stick to my principle
I relaxed without minding that i was expecting any visitor but i made sure that everything was available in the kitchen. Around some minutes after five in the evening, a knock came on the door and know that it was her. I welcomed her in
TRACY: wow! Your house is awesome **she complemented**
ME: thank you
TRACY: you never told me that you live alone, i would have been coming here more frequent but i thought that you lived with your parents
ME: yeah, i live alone. What shall i offer you? **i changed the topic because i don’t want her to ask of my parents**
TRACY: anything will do
I walked to the fridge and brought her nutri-milk with a glass cup because i don’t drink it. I dropped it for her on the table and she pours it into the glass cup for herself
TRACY: thanks for the drink
I wondered why she never insisted that i taste the drink before she drinks it because some guys will add drugs like sleeping drugs to the drink so as to have their way easily most especially if you offended them but this one was here drinking like her life depends on it
ME: you are welcomed
TRACY: but you are still not happy with me because you have been dull since i come here
Yeah! I was withdrawn and dull since she came but not that i was sad with her, i was busy mapping out plan to use and lure her but i couldn’t get any. Don’t blame me because the only experience apart from watching porn movies was my encounter with Miss Evelyn but she was the one that initiated that one and i was not even concentrating initially that i could have grabbed something from that. The only hope i have now was to apply that of the porn movies but i was still confused. But I don’t care if she feels irritated or humiliated; all i wanted was to get her laid no matter what
[i]To Be Continued[/i]
