*WASTED SOUL*
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"I am sorry Tofunmi,we can no longer be partners. My pastor said our union can never work out and if we force it,we will only pay in a difficult way,which will bring hatred between us. So let's just end it here,do not call me again. Okay?
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These were the words of Fikayomi to me.. Hmmm Oluwafikayomi the love of my life. I am Jesutofunmi by name,and this is my story.
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I met Fikayomi on the 14th of March 2004. It was such a beautiful sunday. I left for church on this blessed day,a day I never knew i will one day curse. Oh my God! He had such a sonorous voice,i fell in love with his voice immediately and wished he could keep singing. I was new,it was my first sunday in that church,and i found myself loving the church.
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At the end of the service,i saw him coming to me, Wow! I was nervous,happy and i had butterflies in my stomach. He asked for my name and told me his. He asked for my number,of which I voluntarily gave out. I don't understand,but i believed our chemistry was working. He was attracted to the new girl in his church,i was attracted to the cutest singer i've ever met. Isn't that wonderful?
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Fikayomi was such a nice cool guy. I had always loved him. We became friends,and he calls me everyday. He asked me out,blessed Jesus! I was the happiest girl on earth..for that was what i had always wanted..hmmm,i didn't give him any reply,told him i will think about it. I do not want to appear cheap. My heart was screaming yes..Fikayomi never stopped bugging me. I finally gave him a yes on the 29th of May 2004..it was a saturday. Oh yes! I gave him a yes after the choir rehearsal. My bad! I didn't tell you i am now a chorister? Fikayomi refused to let me be until i joined. He was the music director.
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Fikayomi was so excited on this said day,and it made me happy seeing how glad he was. I was only age 17 and he was 27 years. To me,age was nothing but a number. My Fikayomi was ready to wait for me. Even though he was already a graduate and i was still a jambite.
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We became so close,i loved him with all my heart,and i believed he loved me too. We kept our relationship hidden from church,that was my mum's advice..Of cause,he knew my mum,i couldn't keep it away from my mum. The love i had for him was that of a fire that can never be covered.. Fikayomi was everything to me. I visited him regularly and helped him with his chores. My heart(as i used to call him) was living all by himself in a comfortable bachelor's apartment. It made everything easier.
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Did i tell you i was a virgin? Okay,now you know. I vowed to keep it for my husband,if only i knew,I would have given my pride to Dotun my first boyfriend.
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Fikayomi always initiated the romance and kisses,i found it difficult to resist him,but i still managed to avoid sex. Not for long though,we started having sex after a year of being together..i was scared of loosing him. Fikayomi loved me more because of the sex. I do feel guilty anytime we sing in church,but it all end when we are together again.
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Most times,we do it without protection,and he gives me drugs to use afterwards. I gave him my all. Within two years of our relationship, i had mistakenly gotten pregnant twice and he gave me drugs to abort it. All this while,i haven't gained admission. I guess God was punishing me. I never really bothered.
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I never met his mother,but i knew some of his sisters. I felt it wasn't time,morover i was still 19 years. Things became worse when i was about clocking 21 years. I had aborted four more pregnancies,which resulted in my leaking virg.ina. The drugs had gone the wrong,i was made to use pad every day. I couldn't tell my mother. What about my school? Well i was still at home learning hair dressing. Can you imagine? I never gained admission,even though i was extremely brilliant in secondary school.
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I remembered vividly,Oh yes i remember. It was just a week to my 21st birthday. I got a call from Fikayomi,telling me we needed to talk. I was happy he called,because he had been avoiding me lately. I went to his house,and there and then,he broke up with me..telling me God was against our relationship. Pssssstttt where was God when we started?
Saying i was heartbroken is just an understatement. I left weeping out my heart. Who will marry me now? A lady with a leaking virgina? Who will i tell my problems to?
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I fell sick afterwards,my parents took me to the hospital..test led to tests..and that was how my parents got to know what had been happening. What more? The doctor said my womb had been damaged. Oluwafikayomi had destroyed my life..or should i say i destroyed my life?
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My mother wept with me,my father disowned me.. I now live with my maternal grandmother who had no choice than to accomodate me.
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The news was all over facebook..Fikayomi had gotten married..he got married two months after he broke up with me, and who did he got married to? I can't believe he got married to sister Ruth,the choir secretary....
