part 2 last episode
April 15, 2008 - The day that I decided to die. I just
couldn’t take it any longer. My life had no meaning
now that David was gone. I saw no reason to
continue living. No one would care or notice if I
died... Oh well... I’ve decided that August 8, 2008
would be the right date.
Time crept by slowly, the hands of time hauntingly
counting down the days of my life. Tick tock, tick
tock. The months passed. May. June. July. Just
one more month of pain, I thought. Then, it would all
be over. I could finally be in a pain-free
environment. What a happy thought that is, knowing
that I can finally smile. I would miss him. I knew I
would. But at least I know that I could watch him
from above and smile at his successes and
happiness in life.
July passed with the usual pain and tears. I knew I
was running out of time. But I couldn’t bring myself
to tell David about my plans. I could not be so
selfish and ruin his happy life with Ann. I see him
everyday yet not once did he see me. I’ve
memorized his schedules and followed him around
just so I could see him more often. Why did I do
that…? All that brought me was more pain and
sorrow. But why? Why did I have to be so dumb? I
guess it’s because I still haven’t let go of the love
we used to have. I still love him more than anything
in the world. No matter how he treated me, I know
that somewhere deep down, he loves me too…
August 1, 2008 - I could feel it. My time on earth
was coming to an end. Today I watched with tears
as David and Ann walked hand-in-hand to church. I
should really be happy for him because he found
the true love of his life. But somehow, after all these
years, I couldn’t bring myself to smile for him. No
one but me, knew how I truly felt. I hated Ann for
stealing him away. I hated what he did to me. I
hated the fact that he chose her instead of me. I
was angry. Very angry. But what would that do? It
didn’t affect him at all…
August 7, 2008 - Tomorrow I would finally die. The
date of my death had to be August 8. Just six years
ago, on the very same day, David had asked me to
be his. And it was just five years ago when he
broke my heart. Everything happened on August 8th
and so would my death. Earlier today, I consumed a
large quantity of pills. I slowly waited for my life to
end. I sat on the bed that evening, finishing this
very story of my life. I suddenly felt really tired and
I knew I only had hours left. I sat up for a while and
memories kept running in and out of my head. I
thought about the happy year that I spent with
David and the smiles on our faces. Our first kiss…
First hug… - Everything.
With my life ebbing away, I took out my silver box. I
recited every word of all his letters with tears in my
eyes. I clutched them tightly to my heart, hoping the
he’ll remember me even after today. His words
filled my head until I could think of nothing else. I
cried miserably and I knew there was one last
thing I had to do. Impulsively, I reached for my
phone and dialled his number. He picked up on the
first ring.
“Hey David. I can’t believe how long it’s been since
we’ve last spoken to each other. Don’t worry.
Nothing’s wrong,” I lied, “Hello?” his loud voice
boomed.
“I need to see you…” I said in the tiniest voice and
hung up. I wasn’t sure if he would make it in time.
The clock read 11:30 PM. The day is almost over
and so is my time left on this earth. After a while, I
heard a loud bang on my door followed by loud
footsteps up to my room. David walked into my
room, as handsome as ever. He rushed to my side
and asked me what was wrong in a panicky voice.
“I have something to tell you but please stay calm.
In minutes time, I would be leaving forever. I just
needed to see you one last time before it is too
late. That’s the reason why I called you here.” I
touched his face. It was wet with tears. Somehow,
he understood what I was talking about.
“No!” he yelled.
“You’re Not Leaving To Go Anywhere. You Can’t
Leave Me Here. Remember What You Promised
Me?”
I put on a faint smile and took his hand in mine.
“Just like how you promised me to be always
together forever?” I chuckled feebly.
“Anyway, after I leave, I want you to read this story
and this letter and you’ll understand everything.” I
said pointing to the diary.
“Thank you for coming to see me one last time
before I leave. I was so scared I would die alone.
Ever since we broke up 5 years ago, no one has
ever told me they loved me. No one said I was
important. No one cared about me. But that’s
okay... When I lost you, life lost all it's meaning. I’m
not loved, not cared for,
and not important to anyone. I took so much effort
to keep my heart going. I can’t do it any longer. I’m
so sorry that I have to break my promise.” Tears of
pain came rolling out of my eyes.
“Don’t cry David. I want you to be happy with me
for the last moments of my life. Oh how good it
feels to finally smile and be happy.” I flashed him a
weak smile. Although I was in tears, I felt happier
than ever.
“Fiona, I love you…” I heard the pain in his voice as
he choked the words out.
“Haha, I know you don’t mean it. You’re just saying
that to make me feel better about my life. Even so, I
want to thank you because that meant a lot to me.
Now I can die knowing that my last wish came true.
I can go now with a smile on my face because I
know that at least one person on this earth loves
me. Thank you...” I knew I only had seconds left. I
took my last and final breath and one last tear
flowed out of my eyes.
“I love you David. Good-bye...” My eyes shut,
never to be opened again. And just like that I left,
with David by my side.
“I love you too… I truly do…” he whispered but it
was already too late. I had already left.
“NO!!!” he screamed, unable to accept everything
that just happened.
So that was how I lived the past 5 years - without a
heart. I had only one reason to keep my heart
beating: I still loved you. But it hurts too much. I
can’t do it any longer... There wasn’t one day that I
lived without sadness. I would seriously give
anything and everything to feel loved like I did 6
years ago, even if it is just for a day. I would give
anything in the world to be the Ann in your life. I
would lay in my bed every night crying to myself. I
would often fantasize about what our future
together could have been - how happy we should
have been. Nothing killed me more than seeing you
with Ann. But if you think that you belong with her,
then promise me you won’t let anyone hurt you.
When you walked away that day, it was the hardest
thing I ever had to do but all I wanted was to set
your heart free. When you left that day, you took
my heart with you and a huge part of me died.
There’s so much pain in my chest, blacking out like
a heart attack. Life is hard; death is easier.
I’ve always wondered what afterlife would be like. I
guess I can find out soon. I hope you live a long
and happy life before joining me. I guess I’ve finally
learned to forgive you for what you did and I
learned to live with the fact that you didn’t choose
me. I don’t blame you for anything. If you’re
wondering why I kept everything that was inside
that silver box, I can tell you. I kept it all because
everytime I see it, everytime I read your letters, I
feel a little bit happier. I kept it because it was the
only part of you that was still mine. It was the only
thing I had left of you. It reminded me that true love
does exist in this world. David, I just want to let you
know that I don’t mind dying here and right now.
I’ve lived life to the best of my ability. I have none
but one regret: letting you go... So I had to pretend
that I wasn’t going to miss you; and had to pretend
that this was what I wanted to do. Haha, the funny
thing is if it wasn’t for me, you wouldn’t have this
happy ending... Oh well... I just have to accept what
life had in store for me.
David, I'm so sorry for making you read this... You
shouldn’t have to suffer with me. I was so scared
that I’d die alone... With no one to share this with...
David, thank you for showing me what true love
means. And as long as you’re happy, I’ll be okay.
Can you please take this silver box with you,
treasure it for me and finish up my story. Thank
you! My time is almost up so I might as well finish
this letter. As for my will, I would like to have my
heart separated from the rest of my body and
cremated separately. I would like the ashes of my
heart to go to you and the rest disposed of nicely.
That way you’ll know that my broken, fragile heart
never stopped loving you in the past and will never
stop loving you in the future. Take care of my heart
David... I wish you and Ann a happy tear-free life
from the bottom of my heart! Remember to keep on
smiling!
Love,
Ann
P.S. I love you David. I always have and I always
will.
It killed me to see how much pain I had brought her
yet I had never realized it. What an idiot, I thought
to myself. How could I have left her like that? I
cried and wished that we hadn’t left. I wish that I
didn’t leave her. She never broke her promise. She
never stopped loving me. But what have I done? I
broke her heart. I smashed her whole world into a
billion pieces.
P.S. There is no ending to this story. Fairytales are
wrong when they say “And they lived happily ever
after". True love never has an ending...Then I saw
her silver box. It touched me so much to see how
she never gave up loving me. I wish I had done the
same for her too. I knew she was still there. I could
still sense her presence. I knew that no matter
where she was physically, she will always live
forever in my heart - where she belongs. I knew
that as long as I live, there would NOT be a day
where I don’t regret leaving her. I’ve made a
decision to leave Ann. Fiona never stopped loving
me and I won’t stop loving her. I love her more than
anything in this world. People say you only fall in
love, really in love, once in a lifetime. So once
you’ve found true love, NEVER let go.
“Hey David. I can’t believe how long it’s been since
we’ve last spoken to each other. Don’t worry.
Nothing’s wrong,” I lied, “Hello?” his loud voice
boomed.
“I need to see you…” I said in the tiniest voice and
hung up. I wasn’t sure if he would make it in time.
The clock read 11:30 PM. The day is almost over
and so is my time left on this earth. After a while, I
heard a loud bang on my door followed by loud
footsteps up to my room. David walked into my
room, as handsome as ever. He rushed to my side
and asked me what was wrong in a panicky voice.
“I have something to tell you but please stay calm.
In minutes time, I would be leaving forever. I just
needed to see you one last time before it is too
late. That’s the reason why I called you here.” I
touched his face. It was wet with tears. Somehow,
he understood what I was talking about.
“No!” he yelled.
“You’re Not Leaving To Go Anywhere. You Can’t
Leave Me Here. Remember What You Promised
Me?”
I put on a faint smile and took his hand in mine.
“Just like how you promised me to be always
together forever?” I chuckled feebly.
“Anyway, after I leave, I want you to read this story
and this letter and you’ll understand everything.” I
said pointing to the diary.
“Thank you for coming to see me one last time
before I leave. I was so scared I would die alone.
Ever since we broke up 5 years ago, no one has
ever told me they loved me. No one said I was
important. No one cared about me. But that’s
okay... When I lost you, life lost all it's meaning. I’m
not loved, not cared for,
and not important to anyone. I took so much effort
to keep my heart going. I can’t do it any longer. I’m
so sorry that I have to break my promise.” Tears of
pain came rolling out of my eyes.
“Don’t cry David. I want you to be happy with me
for the last moments of my life. Oh how good it
feels to finally smile and be happy.” I flashed him a
weak smile. Although I was in tears, I felt happier
than ever.
“Fiona, I love you…” I heard the pain in his voice as
he choked the words out.
“Haha, I know you don’t mean it. You’re just saying
that to make me feel better about my life. Even so, I
want to thank you because that meant a lot to me.
Now I can die knowing that my last wish came true.
I can go now with a smile on my face because I
know that at least one person on this earth loves
me. Thank you...” I knew I only had seconds left. I
took my last and final breath and one last tear
flowed out of my eyes.
“I love you David. Good-bye...” My eyes shut,
never to be opened again. And just like that I left,
with David by my side.
“I love you too… I truly do…” he whispered but it
was already too late. I had already left.
“NO!!!” he screamed, unable to accept everything
that just happened.
I lay there beside the body of Fiona for a while,
crying to myself. I read her story. Her letter went
like this:
Dear David,
You are probably the last person I will talk to before
I die as I’ve decided to kill myself since life meant
nothing anymore. I’m very sorry for breaking my
promise. There’s a lot that happened to me that you
don’t know about. I didn’t want to ruin your perfect
life with Ann. Ever since that day at the park 5
years ago, my life had turned into a living hell. As
you told me that you wanted to leave me, I was in
so much pain. There were no words to explain the
way I was feeling. It was torment. Every breath I
took hurt because I knew you would never be mine.
Happiness left my life and I isolated myself from
everyone else. I was in a deep depression. I had no
one to talk to and no one to share my feelings with. the end
