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Wanna live for you all + her

Wanna live for you all + her

By charliebryn in 29 Mar 2016 | 10:18
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MONDAY
28/3/2016
8:24 PM

I grab my phone I just don't know what to do or type...
Should I say my final goodbye? OR Should I do otherwise?...

The pain never subsides but right now am very happy(surprised?)...The pain I feel right now is about(I'll tell you before the end)..

The happiness is because I have people to live for..You All(coolvalers)..+HER...
Actually I was gisting with my aunt(my mother's younger sis) today,you know to take my mind off things ..non of them knew what am going through or what am thinking or what I want to do(am good at disguise)...Acting like nothing is wrong...

We were discussing about something when she told me about something that almost bring tears out of me eyes that moment.
I was actually a victim to be aborted due to circumstance at which I was conceived..My mother was very afraid I'll live an uncomfortable life,a life full of pains,a life full of suffering (which am.feeling some now) ...BUT that person told her not to,she begged her to gimme a chance,she vow for me that even if my mum can't take care of me she will but wasn't able to,I wasn't able to meet her,though I was born before she died I wasn't able to recognise her....

I just can't bring myself to end it all after hearing that coupled with the fact that there's a beautiful family here willing to help lift off my pain...
I wanna live for this reasons..

I'm in pain right not but the pain is mostly because I couldn't meet her,tell her what I feel,to tell her I owe my life to her,to tell her my worries,what hurts me most is the cause of her death..a sperm like me but I can only do that by staying alive to dissolve all the pain .....

Today is-was kinda strange to me,its the day I planned to end it all turnout to be the day I have something to live for ....People just showing how much they care about me...
Trust me when I say I can read your mind,I know what you wanna hear from me,what you want me to do but I dont know if you really care for me....

Am using this medium to apologise for my suicidal thoughts and thanks for everything .....for being there for me,I hope I can be that someone you want me to be ...

Coolvalers you're the best...


Real Charliebryn
peace...
29 Mar 2016 | 10:18
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Am so happy to read this and to know that you are not going to take your own life Apology accepted
29 Mar 2016 | 10:28
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Peace
29 Mar 2016 | 10:30
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Peace!!!
29 Mar 2016 | 10:34
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hmmmmnn
29 Mar 2016 | 10:52
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u are wlc bro tank God u realise we have a lot to live for apology acepted :)
29 Mar 2016 | 10:52
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Love u
29 Mar 2016 | 11:15
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Apology not yet accepted u nid punishment for such thought
29 Mar 2016 | 11:17
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Chop knuckle..... A kiss 4 ya
29 Mar 2016 | 11:36
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Welcome back to life bruh.. Am very happy that u are ok now u are always welcome anytime/anyday
29 Mar 2016 | 11:42
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its okay. I thank God 4 your life
29 Mar 2016 | 11:46
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Great! You would be..say amen
29 Mar 2016 | 11:55
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You gat to live tomorrow will be better.
29 Mar 2016 | 12:13
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#breathout ... Thanx jah ... Abeg no ley dat kain tot cum near again ... Try mixing up with people
29 Mar 2016 | 12:21
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Hmmm
29 Mar 2016 | 13:39
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[color =maroon]Hmmmm[/color]
29 Mar 2016 | 13:53
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peace
29 Mar 2016 | 13:55
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@Tenniebenson knuckle chopped....hope no bruises dey
29 Mar 2016 | 14:36
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hmmmmm
29 Mar 2016 | 16:01
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Hmmmm...tnk God 4 ur lyf
29 Mar 2016 | 16:02
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So relieved u finally had a change of heart... We all love u
29 Mar 2016 | 16:07
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There shall be no loss.
29 Mar 2016 | 16:08
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live life to d fullest
29 Mar 2016 | 16:25
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owch peace
29 Mar 2016 | 17:30
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Lol.. Na so ur hand strong reach???
29 Mar 2016 | 18:26
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Peace
29 Mar 2016 | 18:41
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@Tenniebenson no worry...nq the softest hand ever
29 Mar 2016 | 19:07
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Hmmmmm´... Mah hear! O bere karamo
29 Mar 2016 | 19:29
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thank God u were able to tink the right way
29 Mar 2016 | 20:45
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@Tenniebenson you don dey speak Chinese Ni... ewo tun leyi o
29 Mar 2016 | 20:47
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I gt licensed gun u cn stil collect it if u hv a second thought abt suicide
29 Mar 2016 | 21:51
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Peace
30 Mar 2016 | 16:49
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Abeg don't even think abt it. Noone has a right to life except God. Keep living and one day, u'll see d reason God allowed u to be born in d first place. We love you.
31 Mar 2016 | 05:18
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PEACE
31 Mar 2016 | 21:30
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Wow, dis is huge bt apology accepted all d same
1 Apr 2016 | 06:23
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Apology accepted... @charliebryn hope no be that moon you dey go everytime dey worry you.
1 Apr 2016 | 06:33
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