God says, “You are beautiful.”
I say, “No I’m not.”
God says, “Do you think I am a liar then?”
I say, “Of course not, You are God. You do not lie.”
God says, “Do you think I am mistaken then?”
I say, “Of course not, You are God. You do not make mistakes.”
God says, “Do you think you know yourself better than I know you?”
I say, “Of course not, You are God. You see everything. You know me
better than I know myself.”
God says, “Do you think I created something ugly and bad when I
created you?”
I say, “Of course not, You are God. You create, and You see that it is
good.”
God says, “Do you think you are more powerful than me? Perhaps I
create you beautiful, but you change yourself?”
I say, “Of course not, You are God. How can I be so powerful as to
change the essence You give to me?”
God says, “When you look at your actions, they testify that I am a liar,
or mistaken, or don’t know you well, or create bad things, or that I am
less powerful than you.”
I say, “I’ve never looked at it that way before.”
God says, “Do you listen to other people more than you listen to me?”
I say, “Yes Lord. But I thought they were talking for You.”
God gives me a look of sadness and frustration that His people do not
always speak His words.
God says, “You are beautiful.”
I say…, and I don’t know what to say...
God is telling me something which goes against what I’ve been taught.
And I don’t want to know that everything I’ve been taught is wrong.
I reply, saying,
“Yes God, I am beautiful.”
I am crying, I am confused.
And I feel God will punish me for my pride.
Yet it is God who pushes and pushes me to see this as the truth.
God holds me in His love and lets me cry.
“Thank you,” He says. “Thank you for listening.”
